Good evening & man is it good to be back on here. I have been through a lot these past 2 years since I last blogged..really going on 3 years. Anyway, I hope everyone is managing to get through this year as best as possible. It has been quite a year since the beginning. I don't think anyone thought we would be where we are at this point in the year.. especially in 2020.
So on to getting to my point. I am starting this blog back up. Currently, I am working a full-time job as a customer service rep/accounts receivables where I have been working for the last 6 years, but I don't' see that working out too much longer. The job has become overwhelming and quite stressful. Work has been piling up more work on me than I care to stress over and pretty much filling in for a manager who doesn't seem to want to be at work like he should. Not knocking anyone for what they choose, but it becomes a bit much when the assistant manager is constantly calling in/taking off and leaving us short in office and others are having to fill in on his duties. Plus, there really isn't any more growth for me at this company. I can't move up as those positions seem to only go to the men and I really don't feel this job is for me anymore. At this point, it is no longer fulfilling and more like a job to pay the bills. So back to blogging and trying to switch over to remote work and working from home to have less stress & more time for my teenagers and not burning the candle at both ends.
Since the quarantine, I like many others have gained those covid 20 as I call them. I am working towards trying to widdle down the weight, but it has gotten so much harder than I anticipated. I have also let people and things get in the way of my view and I need to refind my "why". It has been a struggle since a lot of the time with the stress of work, I have ended up in a dark place and manage to pull myself out by talking myself into the gym and reminding myself I have 2 kids relying on me and I can push through the dark depths I seem to find myself in sometimes. It gets lonely being single, but I manage to keep my head up even though it would be great to have someone to go home to and just hold and see when I get home or when they get home. It gets tiring grinding this out. I need to find a goal again. I had one and let a man get in the way of that and had to make a few changes due to the environment was not a good one and reminder of things that took place, but as of now, I have changed to 2 other places versus the one. So for now I am good, and still trucking along. Trying to make my gains again. It has been hard restarting, but hearing people say you are doing awesome and finding out they really see me as a "badass", makes it worthwhile. So if anyone has a word of advice or tips on making the switch from in-office work to remote, please feel free to send them my way. I need as much help as I can get to get away from my office and on to the next part of my journey.
I hope all are doing well and keeping your heads up. Good night for now and keep pushing yourselves to make those gains and changes to better yourself for those who look up to you. Love yourself first!!
